Despondent day

Today is a despondent day. I don’t really understand why, but feel myself to be teetering on some sort of edge. I tried eating it away with bad Chinese buffet at lunch, which only made things worse. It’s funny, though… I’m bringing home the bacon with two huge orders, and still can’t muster the energy to feel better than a shit-house rat. I just want to crawl under the covers, stop bathing, and give up. Too bad about that entire debt thing, and a pestilential need for physical/emotional contact with other human beings. Also, my niggling need to eat more than twice a day. Whatever.